Maybe I'm under the weather.
Or maybe it's listening to Shane & Shane.
It could be the time of year.
Or just being 25.
But I'm feeling melancholic. I miss my friendships. I can't really explain it, but I don't like growing up and losing people. Losing them to other countries, losing them to other activities, losing them to busy-ness.
Maybe the melancholy is also from God. He is maybe saying to me, Thais, I will never leave you or forsake you. The kind of deep relationship you are craving can only be found in Me. Come spend time with Me...
The problem is my heart. It doesn't react. It doubts. It has a hard time acting on what it can't see or feel. It isn't letting my mind direct it. It's like it has a life of its own and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it!
Speak to my heart, Jesus... I'm begging You.
Or maybe it's listening to Shane & Shane.
It could be the time of year.
Or just being 25.
But I'm feeling melancholic. I miss my friendships. I can't really explain it, but I don't like growing up and losing people. Losing them to other countries, losing them to other activities, losing them to busy-ness.
Maybe the melancholy is also from God. He is maybe saying to me, Thais, I will never leave you or forsake you. The kind of deep relationship you are craving can only be found in Me. Come spend time with Me...
The problem is my heart. It doesn't react. It doubts. It has a hard time acting on what it can't see or feel. It isn't letting my mind direct it. It's like it has a life of its own and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it!
Speak to my heart, Jesus... I'm begging You.
posted by Thais at 2:56 AM
1 Comments:
I've been going through somthing similar lately...my heart (soul?) is parched for the feeling of security and whole-ness I find in true fellowship. The fellowship Christians have in Christ. Without God in a relationship, something is definitely missing. Somthing is missing....
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