On My Mind Today...

Yesterday was a day that sort of stopped me in my tracks. I sat down and figured out all my "finance stuff". With 500 swiss francs to my name, I'm more broke than I thought I was. It makes the job-finding a necessity, and an urgent one at that. It's good, because it will force me to pray about it, and really seek God out for provision. But it's also a wee bit stressful...
I've been thinking a lot about what to do in the near future. It feels like that's all I think about, in fact. Is there a purpose for me here in Geneva? Am I staying because it's safe? Is there room for all that God wants to develop in me here? Or would I grow more elsewhere? Could I be learning more things if I was working-to-make-money in Brussels or in the US? Why is God reconnecting me to old friends that I haven't really hung out with in years? Why hasn't Starbucks called yet? Do I want to - should I - get involved in ministries here? What is the future of Shema - is it something I should stay in Geneva for?
So there's a glimpse into my recent questionings.I can't seem to make up my mind about anything, but I do know that whatever it is I chose to do, God will have His hand in it, and it will be good. Awesome, even.